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Speak Your Mind and Say Things Out Loud
“If you love someone, you tell them. Even if you’re scared that it’s not the right thing. Even if you’re scared that it’ll cause problems. Even if you’re scared that it will burn your life to the ground, you say it, and you say it loud and you go from there.” — Mark Sloan
I sometimes feel that we don’t say I love you too many often to people that we actually love. I have this family model where I don’t think about my mom like my mom, but more as like a far relative or even maybe a friend and I can’t remember the last time I actually said I loved her. Sometimes it feels like we’re not that close, and a lot of things in life have happened for me to feel like this. But it is life, and the only thing for me right now is to change things around and go from there.
I think things have been like this in our family because of the way that I have been raised, we didn’t show emotions, we didn’t say emotional things a lot to one another, not my parents, not my grandparents, nobody. And I think it is because my parents were raised to not show emotions at all, for whatever reason. And so they didn’t do it when they were kids, and when they were adults, it was a different time, people didn’t seem to care to say what they were feeling, or maybe they were afraid of something…
